At least I've begun to eke out some warmth in the tent I've pitched in the campsite reserved for single men. The being on my own I can handle, what's harder is the knowledge that there's better place elsewhere and the others have wrapped up their tarpaulins and gone there. Alex and Jake are miles down the road and I haven't even pulled out the tent pegs.
Quoted. "Finishing line"
How true the story reflect my life.. haiz. How do one noes when it's time to settle? How do one noes she's e one?
Trust dont exist. Norms exist. People build this norm about people they know. And when people deviate. That's when disappointments sets in.
Great Saying by -My Name-. WAHAHAHA
I don't write often. Not because i have a personal blog elsewhere where i complain my heart felt blah blah blahs to it. Nope i don't. Neither do i complain in full to anyone else. Yes... to specific friends of mine who go through all my woes with me, patiently and nicely. Yup i really appreciate u guys. i'm pretty glad that fate had brought a few great great friends into my life. i'm pretty glad i live a blessed life with a great family and a great network of friends who ARE actually willing to help me in times of need. I thank u all.
But this blog post.... ya thanking my friends is one thing... main purpose: DAMN YOU FATE. i had enough. I dont i might be losing a few years of my life scolding this...(CHOY!***) but den i cant help it. Anyway by now i am pretty pretty sure ya hell i'll probably be an old virgin d***h**d by the age of 50. virgin coz i believe in marriage and love. BELIEVE.... lol d******* because at the age of 50 i doubt i will be a very pleasant guy, with the various diseases that comes with old age.... lol.
Maybe i shouldnt blame fate... humans tends to point fingers everywhere. to others. to themselves. and eventually to all the supernatural crap they can think of. God, Ghost, blah blah blah FATE. ya... i am but a human. but why cant i blame fate. blame him/her/it for bringing me to people, and people to me, only to let me know i wouldn't know this person for long. that i will leave him/her at a certain point of my time. haiz. i lost so many precious important people of my life. to life itself. wad an irony. NOT to death. but to life. cause i sure hope none of these precious individuals are gone.(CHOY*** again.)
If i were to be back in primary school, and the teacher asked me to spell "life". I would be dutifully spelling it out correctly L.I.F.E. lol....now? i would probably spell it C.O.M.P.L.I.C.A.T.E.D hahahaha life is simple by itself. but let a human live it..... the human mind would probably complicated this simple matter a zillion billion times. How i sometimes wish i'm a bloody bird. or heck. juz gimme ani animal and i'll be glad. Hunt and be hunted. nothing else in mind. SIMPLE. even u wanna complicate it... the most u get is a cross-breed. and as an animal u dun have to think.... leave the naming of the new species to the humans...
hell NO i wanna be an animal. i love being human. i love enjoying love and pain. love enjoying happiness and sadness. blah blah blah.... it's a process of life i go through. but what i don't enjoy is how this phases come when u least wants them. and worse still.... goes when u least wants them to. *grumble* Ever saved for a thing you wanna buy, den when u finally get ur cash... u realise it goes out of stock AND OUT OF PRODUCTION. wtf. u get wad i mean tho.
oh heck, i dun mean to end this abruptly but den i dun have a chapter 2 to this blog. if u think u've been enjoying yourself reading this post (tho i seriously doubt it), well this is a phase.... fate has chosen to take this away when u least wants it to. ya.... bye.
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