Friday, September 30, 2005

What I have Lived For by Bertrand Russell

Three passions, simple but overwhelmingly strong, have governed my life: the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and the unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind. These passions, like great winds, have blown me hither and thither, in a wayward course, over a deep ocean of anguish, reaching to the very verge of despair.

I have sought love, first, because it brings ecstasy -- ecstasy so great that I would often have sacrificed all the rest of life for a few hours of this joy. I have sought it, next, because it relieves loneliness -- that terrible loneliness in which one shivering consciousness looks over the rim of the world into the cold unfathomable lifeless abyss. I have sought it, finally, because in the union of love I have seen, in a mystic miniature, the prefiguring vision of the heaven that saints and poets have imagined. This is what I sought, and though it might seem too good for human life, this is what -- at least -- I have found.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge. I have wished to understand the hearts of men. I have wished to know why the stars shine. And I have tried to apprehend the Pythagorean power by which number holds sway above the flux. A little of this, but not much, I have achieved.

Love and knowledge, so far as they were possible, led upward toward the heavens. But always pity brought me back to earth. Echoes of cries of pain reverberate in my heart. Children in famine, victims tortured by oppressors, helpless old people a hated burden to their sons, and the whole world of loneliness, poverty, and pain make a mockery of what human life should be. I long to alleviate the evil, but I can't, and I too suffer.

This has been my life. I have found it worth living, and would gladly live it again if the chance were offered me.

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I stole this from someone's blog.... coz i think it's damn nice...

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

About Parents and children

Just came back from singing songs and it's like 3.45am now.. Realli tired and wanna sleep, but came back, clicked on a friend's blog and saw an entry I couldn't resist commenting on. So I shall stay awake and say what I have to say.

Ever notice the huge emphasis placed on money by our parents? On how we must get good education so as to get a good job, i.e. hopefully.. good pay. On how our parents slog their guts out so as to earn the one dollar more each day?

Let's not refer to fortunate people, namely the silver/gold/diamond/whatever spoons. I shall use my mother as example then, so as to illustrate my idea.

From young, my mother had tried her best to provide care and love to us, and this I believe will hold true for all parents. Which parent in the world loves not their own child? But I remember, once in an essay for school assignment, I wrote about how I was not cared for, etc. My mum got to read it and I think it broke her heart. Ma I'm sorry.

Needs and wants can never be satisfied totally. But I believe that every parent will go about their own way in caring for their children. Probably not the best possible way they deemed fit.... I feel.. it's probably the only way they know. No parent is born a parent. No experiences.... no nothing. What they gain and learn from, is them being a child and what they lacked and needed. Our parents, when they are kids, they lead a poor life. (due to economical reasons) So what was the major factor that they identified as a hindrance to family? It was the lack of money.

(I have friends who have no worries about things in malls, but see no sight of their parents...)

Sometimes I feel, it's not that your parents don't care for you. It's not that he/she don't care now also... even when they struck gold. But I feel, perhaps, it's the only way they know to show their care to you. Before they struck gold, they strive to earn the money, thus neglecting you in process. But think of it this way, even if it's me, I work and get 5000/hr for myself, but slog to death, I also won't do it. People are born to be lazy. But what's the motivation behind the slogging? It's family. He/she is striving so hard, and while working, the sole words in the mind are names of family members. That is the key where one will never see. And imagine eventually the slogger achieves target of letting his/her family lead a comfy life.... goes back to family and see cold faces. Haiz. Sadness part 2. So there they go about using the only way they know of.... money. And tries to buy his/her way through.

I don't know if one will understand what I mean. But when judging, try to think from more perspectives. What I'm saying is juz one of alternative perspectives. Cheer up sad children of the world...

Kana Conned by Stupid Cab driver.... Grrr

Was late for SMU class today because my ass just refused to remove itself from the bed. Hey! Not my fault! I only go home a few hours a week ok. So I took a cab. Ya Stupid cab driver took a longer route. End up i reached here later than Alex. (Alex was at Toa Payoh MRT also when he called me. And my cab just drove past the same Bloody MRT) AND I WAS SLOWER THAN HIM!!!! Now you know how big a circle I was in.

Then Government conned my money also... How come at this kind of hour(3pm), I need to pay $1 ERP to enter CBD!!!! Wad the hell, not even peak hour... Kaoz. Today don't need eat anything liao... Money all go to cab...

And I actually woke up at 8am today to do my tutorial!!! Impressed with myself. Esp when i slept at 3.30am last night! Wow... My mood to study is finally here... DENG NI DENG DAO WO XIN TONG... hahaha time to start work le.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Sentosa with my favourite couple friends

Sentosa beach party by fhm. Not as fun and hot as the name sounds though. A small compound enclosed with made shift barriers. A small foam party area where mostly ugly chicks or guys went in. Worse was because we went as public, and it seemed all priviledges are only available to the vips or vvips. Wad the hell. Actually only the free drink and food la. The prettier babes are not in the foam area. Boring! It's no wonder i sort of slept all the way through.


Entertaining myself while waiting...

Waiting at spinelli for my friends, and entertaining myself as usual. I realise i'm so getting good at this. Occupying myself during times of boredom. Why are they always one hour late at the minimum? Haiz still contemplating whether to go partying with them tonight.

Orchard is such a new place for bird watching. Hahaha. Especially on weekends, this place becomes a battlefield. Lol. Everyone vying for attention. Me? I feel as though i'm dressed to go downstairs and buy chicken rice for lunch. But good thing is i can go about observing weird freaks without blowing my cover. Haha!

This is dumb. In a wireless zone without my laptop. Using my phone and typing this. Haha. Good thing i have office on my phone too! Oh they are at adidas. Haha. I will not go in there twice a week. No way. So i shall continue waiting. Haha! It's a good seat i'm in. Ok looks like i have to go for now. Till next time.


Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Girls.... guys.....girls...(Random Thoughts)

I believe this is something ALL guys and some girls do ALL the time. If you're a guy, Don't need to fucking deny ya? (N.b. I dun realli consider gays as guys)

1) Emmy's are not realli Emmy's. So are Grammy's Oscar's. WHY? Chinese idiom : 醉翁之意不在酒。(ie. the drunkard goes to the bar not for the beer.) Yup. On the excuse of rewarding hardwork of artistes, it's actually A SUPERB chance for us to GAWK GAWK GAWK our eyeballs out! haha. And go...Ewwwuuu FAT ASS~ FAT ARMS~ WAD DISGUSTING HAIR~ Wuuuu NICE BOD~ Wuuu BOoBs BOOBS. ZzzZZZzzZZ Conclusion: those who goes to the bar for beer? are the bartenders/waitresses.

2) Bro and I were discussing that day on judging girls and decide if they fall into the "we wan them!!!" category or "erm... erm... bye" category. Apparently he has a benchmark for it. And we spent one whole evening talking about it and being third parties in a relationship.. MY conclusion: Love and relationship is not economics.
Economics: -Theories based on basic assumption of RATIONAL thinking and decision making.
-Most of the theories are single variable factor and fixing the rest of the possible
variables constant.
Love : -Bill Cosby's new show of "COUPLES do the DARNEST things..."
-Too many variables to consider, eg the FEMALE MIND, period. That's about all u
need.... WAHAHA

3) SX was saying last nite, it's so unfair there's not much judgements made on guys' appearance, but girls are under the constant pressure. Then she said her "requirement" is juz clean and dress nice. Then thinking about it, I concluded wrt our asian culture....
In the past, guys have already been judging girls since God knows when, coming out with chinese idioms such as "chun yu luo yan, bi yue xiu hua" ( PURELY solely on looks). Whereas, for the females, the best they could came up with is probably "feng du pian pian" (on etiquette and manners). So it's history that's embedded into us. Plus the common STUPID thinking of "marrying a chicken/dog u follow a chicken/dog" from the past, luckily there's divorces nowadays. Or else I would really wrinkle in injustice for my 2 sisters. Not that they're of marriable age la! Lol... Imagine... SLEEP WITH A DOG FOR UR LIFE.... ewwuu... I'd probably cook it and eat it WAAHAHAHAHA

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Stop treating my comments sections as your supermarket!

What the hell. Stop Leaving advertisements in my comments la! See liao abit du lan one hor... I am not interested in Blogger.supermarket.com la! Kaoz people nowadays, don't know the difference between gaining customer's satisfaction and gaining customer's irritation!

Juz like blardee SBS. I actually dont wanna complain about them le. Cause I think I complained too much on them. But WHAT THE FUCKING HELL! They think they're a freaking ALMOST MONOPOLY they can play around with Singaporean's ass is it. Really pissed off with them. How come I don't see such problems in mass transportation services in other countries! We should have more companies providing bus services... Then this way SBS will not take for granted their market share and treat us customers like SHIT. Compromising service quality to cut cost... HAHAHAHA wanna get world class service?! Dr Tan Gu Gu heard be4? WAIT LONG LONG UNDERSTAND. Super duper duper super duper pissed off... Blardee monopolies... Why phone companies can have 3 but bus only 1.25? hahhaaha sorry for the insult SMRT... work hard ah? BEAT SBS... cause they make me wait and sweat for 30mins each time I wanna leave my house. And it's a fucking feeder service!!!!

Monday, September 19, 2005

Dental Dams?? WAHAHAH

Wahahaha Dental Dams? Lol... Someone commented on dental dams. Hey brother, if you will go stick your tongue into any father mother hole... of coz u expose urself to STD la! But you dun realli get kids from it rite? so condoms and female condoms are still the best la! 2 in 1 leh. prevent STD and prevent kids. Nowadays pple go for economical 2 in 1 stuffs! hahaha like my stomach now... 6 in 1. Super economical and good~ hahaha

I'm paying 80cents for ZzzZZzzZ

I'm paying 80 cents for bedtime stories. Not that the newspaper is lousy these days la. Maybe I shouldn't be reading newspaper whose targeted readers are those of secondary school students or soccer fanatics.

I seriously should be buying the Straits Times from now on. News nowadays are full of scenes and clips from channel 8/U/5 dramas. Even our serial killers lack of creativity now. Or is it more and more information that's clouding their mind subconsciously that's giving them a solution to their problems. Problem: I committed murder. Solution: Chop Chop Chop Chicken Chop Pork Chop. ZzZZZ where is your creativity... Mince??? HAHAHA Kaoz If u know such things will happen DONT KILL IN THE FIRST PLACE LA!!! LIFE IS PRECIOUS! NOT ONLY URS IS OKIE! I seriously think the courtesy lion should come out more often. Like dat ah...even if the bugger will stab someone... will think twice den wave the knife instead. haha den probably sing along with barney the friendly cock dino. HAHAHAHA

Then there's all the weird news la. You pple read yourselves la. Now bloggers have to go to jail de leh... i Hum Ji one... I still wan my family to be my family and not my family-ed... so ya. read and u will realise....you're paying 80cents for bedtimes stories... I think Dan Brown, Jane Green, Jeffrey Archer can write better... Save your papers' money and buy novels instead peeps

Stock vs love

I am interested in stocks. I'm too interested in the topic of love and relationships. Thus, lame me attemptin to link both together again. Heh. There will be no organisation. I'll say whatever that comes to my mind ya? So try to bear with me.

1) Comment on peeps who can't decide on a person they will love for life. Ever feel that you're attracted to so many that you're unwilling to commit to only one. Advice: If you're not sure on which stock to invest, invest in non. Diversification can reduce risk.... true... but don't forget low risk = low returns. So if you're indecisive, unwillingly to commit, my advice is don't lead people on.

2) I'm interested in dividends paying stocks/bonds. Maybe I demand constant attention from my partner. Doesn't quite sound like a guy now I think. But oh well, IT'S MY BLOG!! SO I SAY WHAT I WANNA SAY! I'm am not interested in short term capital gains. (i.e. Buy and sell short.) Neither am I interested in investing stocks with expected long term growth. Stocks that are priced damn bloody fucking high now in hope for the company's growth in earnings. I don't have that kind of patience. Plus pay so much now, and hope for things to go your way in so many years later. Hahaha you siao ah? Think Osama and Katrina is fake one ah. Things don't stay peaceful for long. That's life. How I wish life is plain ol' sailing smooth.

3) With so many stocks in the market, how do one then know which stock is the Citibank for Warren Buffet. How would one know which stock is the one you will gain like siao... How often would such stock appear. Haiz. Don't be silly, most would say. Save in bank at least you get you 0.125% annual interest la. Hahaha ya lor... and be single till u die.

4) Key: Don't invest blindly. Hahaha That's about all the link la i think. Other than that, love is not an investment.

Friday, September 16, 2005

WoooWooo~

I was the bread and I was buttered!!! Wooo WOooOOOoOO~ *google*.com Lol

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Bangla vs Ah Beng

Wahahah got this from my brother... Damn fucking funny.... Lol

http://media.putfile.com/bangla47 go listen and laugh your ass out if u enjoy vulgarities.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

WAD THE HELL!!! An invention I didn't know about.

WOW!!! Okie i'm damn bloody slow. Better late than never so wad the heck!! check this out man! There's actually a female condom. Wad the hell... they realli wan equality in sexes for everything ah? But then it's abit dumb. There's still that stupid plastic in between... so who wears it... does it matter? Anyway i read about it in someone's blog den when to google it... and hahaha i actually tot she was talking cock. For u kukus that are even slower than me... i have saved u guys the trouble of GOOGLING(double meanin) at/for a female condom.

http://www.femalehealth.com/theproduct.html

Hmmm Wonder why they call it THE product WAHAHAHA.

Starbucks tiam

Wtf... today was at starbucks... coz frd wanna hi his frd... so i sit down and wait...LUCKY for me his hi is "Hi....blah blah blah blah blah...^infinity" den i can sit and observe kukus.... which i always enjoy doing... WAHAHA

den for a while no kuku's around so i abit sian. den got this guy come along with green shirt and tie...was he balding...hmm dun remember la. Anyway, he order a frapp den he was holding a stirrer and a straw. den i tot WAD THE FUCK u holding a stirrer for. den i see... the stupid stingy piece of shit opened the cover....den use the stirrer to scrape the whipped cream to eat. Ni nia eh yao siu gia... wad the fucking stingy shit... den nvm...

he took the straw out from the paper wrapper...and threw the bloody wrapper on the floor... WTF again... u bloody think this is kopi tiam ah. wind blow the paper and let the paper hopefully fly into the dustbin ah. but den he realli looked like he frequent kopi tiam or hawker centre. so perhaps starbucks was an EXQUISTE experience for him.... dat explains e tie and long sleeved shirt.... DRESS for the e occasion ma..

Singapore image ah.... unique and hard to change... learn to accept these fuckers k.

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