Mangekyou no Namida

28 & 29 Dec
Sailing X

Hohoho. SAILING~ SAILING~ Basically it's not me who sailed. I did sail la. But not much. Purpose of the event was to expose more people to sailing. Taught theory for both days to the participants. Hahaha. I really pity them for having to memorise so many information. To make things worse, it was presented by me! WAHAHAHA. Good luck. After a short theory lesson of blah blah blah, sail sail sail~ one participant to one instructor to one boat! Wah damn stress. You have to go NONONO POINT POINT! NONO NOT BEAR! WATCH OUT FOR THE YACHT! Hahaha not so extreme but then when you have to repeat things to 3 participants in 2 days, it becomes a disaster of this scale la. Hahaha. Oops, I really shouldn't be making a joke on first-timers. I was one too. But they were really nice! Glad to see people who enjoyed the sailing experience. Ultimately it was all about having fun and enjoying the sea, the wind and the waves.

Chalet and BBQ on night of 28th! Hohoho~ I didn't stay over because I would miss my bed if I do so. BBQ was great! Chicken with blood still in it, but charred on the skin. Otah was nice. Alex could really bbq marshmallows man... Crispy on the outside, soft on the inside. Like creme brulee. YUM YUM~ Mahjong after that. I lost 13 bucks, no big deal.. Hee. Everytime I play mahjong, I will always get lousy tiles. But I don't mind losing la, even though I always get the lousy tiles. Only 10 cents 20 cents. It's really about the fun of the game, about strategies and decisions. I leaving the best part for the last. Before BBQ, we were playing bridge! Hahaha. Janice, Sabrina, Joanna and me. I joined in after Wee Tee went to take the MJ tiles. I LOVE leading people off track. WAHAHHA. Janice won the bidding. So she called her partner. I wasn't her partner la. So as usual, my evil self took over. I gave Janice a gleeful smile. I knew she had taken my bait. Hahaha. So I played along. She fed me two sets. By then I saw Joanna's face change. There goes Janice partner! HAHAHAH So FUN! JANICE IF U ARE READING THIS.... WAAHAHAHHAHAHAAH to u. =p

30 Dec

MY SLIDING DOOR WARDROBE CAME!!!! Weee~~~ Lalalala~ So nice. It has a full length mirror inside that slides left and right too!
Pot luck party! Generations of SAJC Sailing Team. The second gathering for us. Only around 20 turned up this time. Oh well, the feeling was still great. It's the feeling of a family unbroken as sung in the school's song. Bound together by the similar memories of training, competition and sweat. Sailing itself is quite a boring thing. What fun can you get from moving up down left right in the vast sea? It's the training the team goes through, the encouragement we give each other, the competitions where we used our brains to strategise, the cheer and pep talks we give each other, the dinners we spend together....... I would not trade anything for this memory I treasure from my JC days. I miss my assigned boat of which I named Demetrius. I miss the tiller extension I made for myself because the rest were too short. I miss shouting STARBOARD!!!! UP!!! UP!!! UP!!! WATER!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!! I PROTEST!!!! Stress you get from school, life, etc. You get to release them all onto your opponents. Shiok.

Food mainly erm.... SUCKS! I had like mainly a satay dinner. 500 sticks for 20 people. But the satay was also like the only food REALLY edible. Usually, I'd be lazy la. People who know me all guessed that I would go empty handed! HAHAHA SORRY TO DISAPPOINT U PEEPS~ Alvin and I went to West Mall to get ice cream. We planned for two watermelons initially. Hahaha. They lacked fruits ( or so stated in the email). Luckily we didn't bring watermelons. Imagine we brought the two huge balls there, and sitting on the table upon our arrival, was this huge tray of cut watermelon! Luckily. Yifeng and Renfred and co. made jelly. The jelly with rum was DAMN NICE! Get recipe from them! Hahaha.

Play some lame games then went home. Nothing much interesting to mention. EXCEPT......

(Got this from belle....)
The SAJC drinks stall aunty stirs the drinks..... with her BLOODY ARM! AND imagine she dun shave her armpits and as she stirs, the sweat enters the drink! Belle's friend saw her stirring the lime juice. And imagine me drinking the 40 cent lime juice so frequently! YUCK AND FUCK! Then those who knew went for the tao huey zhui. Good luck. Guess what? She dilutes it with water too! WAHAHAHAHA.

For all those who play arcade, we all know that, hits have most damage when they come in combos. SO YA.... You think that's all? HAHAHA Nonono~ The drinks stall aunty is an experienced fighter. She gives 99 hit combos. She collects back used straws for reuse! ARGH! Those which are bitten, she cuts it off! Thinking back, it's no wonder the straws came in different lengths.

She reuses the cups too. We were like thinking, how in the world she got hold of Takashimaya cups, till we saw some yellowish cups. DAMN! And I heard from Renfred, all the stalls shifted to the new SAJC in SA Village.

-Time to sleep-
Tomorrow still got NYE bbq and countdown with buddies. Soon I will die I think.
Too much booze. Lack of snooze. gtg ciao.

This is my favourite song. It's in cantonese. I love it. I love it. And I can cry singing it.

歌曲：谁明浪子心

歌手：王杰 专辑：王杰

王杰:谁明浪子心 词 曲:王杰 可以笑的话 不会哭 可找到知己 哪会孤独 偏偏我永没有遇上 问我一身足印的风霜 怎可结束 可以爱的话 不退缩 可相知的心 哪怕追逐 可惜每次遇上热爱 无法使我感觉我终于 遇上幸福 你说爱我等于要把我捕捉 实在无法担起这一种爱 在这夜我又再度漂泊 你的痴情 请勿继续 请你收起一切相信这晚是结局 听说太理想的恋爱总不可接触 我却哪千山走遍 亦要设法去捕捉 听说太理想的一切都不可接触 我再置身寂寞路途 在那里会有幸福 幸福 家与国的梦不结束 偏偏一颗心抗拒屈服 必须要确实领略到 就算一生一世也甘心 没有局促

What is your purpose of donation?

I seriously hate the previous NKF management to the core for making use of our trust. I hate them to the core. Not really because of the way they handled the funds. But because of the aftermath they have left behind. It is true that the public is forgetful and will soon forget about this. Even so, the trail of trouble and ruins they had left behind for NKF is unforgiveable.

Even though I hate them, I have not withdrawn my monthly donations. Haiz. The poor patients will be suffering. It's not like I am giving much. It's only a few bucks from my monthly allowance. But I still think a little will go a long way eventually. Moreover, the organization is now led by a new management, and I do hope it's a honest one.

I really wished the media would stop throwing so much attention to the old committee. Of course we would like to see the verdict. But the story is only but one of the past, we should be looking at the future instead. This over-hyped saga will only bring uncalled for inconvenience to the staff and to other similar organizations. Ultimately, the ones suffering will be the patients.

I am willing to put my trust in the new management, that their sense of responsibility will be greater than that of greed. I hate to be cheated. I hate to know that my trust is being misused. I fear a repetition of pain. But I really shouldn't put myself in the top priority when the issue is helping others.

Cut short. Wanna play game! haha bye

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

True part:
uncompromising demand for perfection
set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them
But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some (I know. I know. That's why I am still pathetically single. Cause I look dao.)

False part:
elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines (not that rich)
unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people (kao. impress... not even close. I look like shit.)
Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness (pls... I am soft.)

Joy to the world~ Christmas is here. And all the food and drinks~

Hohoho! Finally I have aircon. Sorry for being poor. I don't really like sleeping in air con though. But it feels good to have one.

Christmas dinner at my couzzy, Emily's place! So happy that my maternal family members come together so often! So warm is that feeling that it erases all unhappiness of the year! Falalalala lalalala~ Finger food~ NICE! Hohoho. Suddenly, (think it was my mom) who took out the weighing machine. And one by one~ they went up to the "Noah's Ark". Hahaha. 10minutes later, my eldest aunt was leading the pack for the Great Singapore Workout! Hahahah!! I took my couzzy camera and sneak-attacked them! Placed the camera on the shelf and viola~ A video~ Hohoho! Wondering how it turned out.

Rushed down to MoS. KAO! HAVE U SEEN A QUEUE THIS LONG?!?!?! 150m long 2m thick! It was scary. Pure scary. I know it is a nice and new place. But I am thinking of those stupid asses queueing right at the end of the queue. By the time they reach the entrance, they probably can countdown for end of Christmas and the arrival of Boxing Day a.k.a my mama's birthday!

To Double O we go. Ew music. But somehow I can't last today. Think maybe cause of last night's chilling at Balcony with Jan. Bunch of wild wolves who refused to leave even though rejected. Fights outside. Vomit everywhere. Haiz. No fun. But not bad, saw sis and buddy there! MERRY XMAS! YEAH!!!!

Talking about Balcony. YUCK LA! Was checked out by she-male. Jan and I was sitting by the side facing the road. Then this lady who looked hot sat with a guy behind us. Her back was facing us initially. Then suddenly she turned and I saw her face. Immediately I went. FUCK. *turn slowly... be calm.... face the road.... pretend never see the ghost.* That's when her back no longer faces us after. She turned to face her male friend. (Oh shit.)
Jansen, still oblivious, went,"Hey she checking you out man."
-.-"
"Eh. fuck you la."
*lean over*
"It's a bloody trans can?!?!?!"

Jansen caught her face. Kaoz. *digust on his face* ( But I think she would be damn shuai if remained a male, wasted. Sorry galz~)
Luckily they left early. Quite a nice place to chill out but the music was too loud for chatting.

Ok. Hair dry le. Nighty peeps and a Merry Xmas. Hope you enjoyed it with your loved ones!
Wanted to blog some thots on NKF. Maybe tomorrow.

The next time someone tells me, "That's because the world is fair!" I am sure flashbacks of today's memories will return almost instantaneously. First things first, I would like to thank someone for letting me help today. Or else I would not have such a fulfilling day.

How often can you experience 4 emotions at one go? Happiness, sadness, guilt and helplessness.

Supposed to be helping to pack rations. But apparently they have a system and it felt weird for us to cut in. So, we were allocated to join dispatch instead. To deliver rations to the recepients. The first trip was the trip of a lifetime.

I plead to the public, to consider donations to old and poor people living alone, besides the donations to disease stricken people. There is a reason why you are rich, so you can provide. (Suddenly proud of Bodyshop founder as I say this.)

We arrived at *address*. It was an area where the blocks are all one room flats. (In Singapore, 1-room flats have a living room of 12X5 metres, a kitchen and a small toilet.) In fact I think my bedroom is comparable to their living room. Most of the occupants are mainly old folks. Those who are still mobile will gather at the void deck( first floor), where there are benches and tables. Imagine the loneliness of living alone in one unit, especially when you are so old, I really hate to imagine, let alone hold that thought.

We had only a short list of 7 recipients to deliver to per trip. But the bags of rations were huge. Perhaps not huge to us, but to the folks there, it was. (contents were basically : a bag of rice, a box of biscuits, some seasonings, 3-4 cans of food, 1 bottle of oil) So when we unload the 14 bags at the lift lobby, we got this one big crowd of old folks surrounding the rations with loads of questions. Some of them quickly went back home, hoping that we will be delivering to their house.

And so we delivered to the respective units, where we see living conditions so bad. It is this side of Singapore that is really worth seeing. Not the glamourous Orchard Road, not the magnificent Esplanade. Even the people in Survivor faces conditions that pales in comparism to this.

I hate to see the disppointment on the faces of the old folks when they are not the recepients. I hate to tell them that the goods are not for them. I hate to see things that I can do nothing about. I hate to see old folks living alone. I hate hate hate.

There was this teacher who was delivering on the other block, where she entered this house. This old lady was crying, while eating her rotten food. They said she was so emotional that she was about to commit suicide by jumping out of her window. I was thinking, had they not come with the rations, would she really jump because of hunger and misery? I really wanted to cry then. The world is fair? If so, why are there people suffering like that?

Treat your parents better. Regardless of how lousy a parent they are, or how distant you are from them, they definately do not deserve such treatments. Perhaps they have no children, perhaps they are really alone in this world. But what have they done to deserve such a end to their lives. They have probably slogged for more than half of their lives. And they can't even have a normal simple meal now. It's no wonder they think of death as the only way for them to attain peace.

So young people who commit suicide because of bankruptcy. I fuck you.
People who waste their life. I fuck you.
People who left their parents this way because of selfishness. I fuck you.
To myself. I fuck you too.

On the last note, PLEASE, if you are going to donate your used items, at least bloody make sure it is useable. I see so much junk there. I really wished that if there is a Santa, he would give you a broken, rusty and tire pom chek bicycle for your Christmas.

And I think that if $400k can be spent on naming a location, perhaps it would also be good to consider improving the welfare of this folks. I do really hope our nice government would do something about it. I don't mind not receiving my ERS and having one of these folks fed for slightly more than 2 months. (Idea suggested by that friend, which I agree) But it's people like us who moves the economy and moves the voting percentage. Not the old folks. Perhaps that's why? But moving into an ageing population would just mean that this issue will worsen. Haiz.

Ultimately.......I think, I really hate to see such things. So I avoid it most of the time. I am but a bastard.

My facial hair is growing like a bamboo forest. I have to shave everyday! Argh! Why why why. Troublesome.

Janice was saying that Lifestyle Sunday Times today had an article about guys crying in cinema. And it reminded her of me. Wtf. Hahaha Then as my house does not have Sunday Times, I asked her to tell me the summary of the contents.

It was something like, male and female cry in cinema for different reasons. So it's alright to cry. What the heck. I think the author was trying to justify for males crying in cinemas. What the heck. Wanna cry then you cry, who cares. To actually write an article on it is a waste of news space in my opinion.

Then I was trying to recall the last time i cried in the theatres. Hmm.. I think it was brotherhood. I cried because I could feel how the brother who was filled with hopes, was only faced with dismay when he realised his brother was dead. Haiz. Imagine all the years of waiting, with no news, with hopes and beliefs that he will still be alive. I remembered why I cried. It was also because of a same feeling that I was waiting for something that will not come. (at that time) Haiz, it just hit me on the right spot and tears welled. Not really a BooHoooHooo crying la. So paiseh if I were to do that in public. Plus the feeling did not build up to that extent also.

I think my tears are pretty much dried up. Void of extreme sad emotions. I really wished I can cry once more. Though it is not very manly to cry, but then for a guy to really drop a tear, the magnitude of the issue should be quite great I think. Thus, explains my present MSN nick 等待 眼泪. I am waiting for the girl who can make me cry. Because if I really do cry, I suppose it will mean I really really like her. I hope my hypothesis is right.

等待 “情人的眼泪”

KTV KTV KTV!!! So long never group outing with my uni buddies!!! Ever since end of exam.

My singing sucks! SUCKS SUCKS! Hohoho! Theirs were great. Jansen Patrick and Winnie! All great! =) So happy to have an outing. A great change from my usual boredom.
Pat and Whiny... Whine wWHine Whine!~ all u wan Wahaha

Jansen and Pat. Alex to(w)ing away~
Act hip... Kana sai end up look like i diggin my bloody nose. Spoil image. Not that i have much to start with la! But.. *grumbles*发如雪!!!! Hohoho Super poetic lyrics~ I like it man. Nice mtv story also. Woohoo~

THIS!!! THIS!!! ARGH!!! Doesn't it look like I have the microphone stuffed into my mouth like a dick! DAMN IT LA! KA LA OK CHAMPION IS ME.... -.-'''
Hahahaha! Story telling time. Hahaha This stupid mei of mine... don't know what she was doing to the system la. But she was kneeling on her floor. Hahaha den i went to kick her bloody butt! WAHAHAHA There you see... aftermath. Her attempt to revenge. *defend* as she tries to whack me with the menu! hahaha lousy. I also don't know how it ended up with her in this trying to sell handphone pose. But heck la. Mei you're lousy~ hahaha.
Cheers! End of ktv. No more lalala for me... haiz. sad. I lalala all the way to bugis hahaha as we walked. Hohoho~ the act japanese pose. I don't know why. But trust me... all japanese girls picture confirm is this pose. Their common pose. So ya. *follow*

Dinner at bugis. Coffeeshop opp Mos Burger. Kaoz eating then saw this FREAKING shim walk past. Almost puked can! Not trans. But this guy...in pink singlet and jeans. BLUE eyeshadow and lipsticks. *faint* Sorry if I sound rude to him and his kind. But it's really something I can't accept.

Mei said I tend to mix up lust with love. Haiz. I did missed out on a swimwear show. Haiz. BUT I don't really care about the swimwear. So I still have certain amount of control over lust ba. Love comes before anything else to me. But of course the girl must have sex appeal la. And she has. But... never mind that. You don't expect your husband to hold your hands and get you pregnant. So if you see liao you sian, what is the frigging point of being with her?

To me, emotional part is important. Communication is important. Most importantly, IT MUST BE FUN! Fun in what sense is up to you to interpret. But ya. FUN. I like excitement, I like to try new stuff. I can't go into a relationship knowing that we will be talking about the same thing over and over again. I can't go into a relationship feeling like Pinky and the Brain.

Pinky: So Brain, what are we going to do tomorrow night?
Brain: The same thing we do EVERY night, to try and take over the world~

-.-"
ROUTINE SUCKS! Brain does it cause it has to do with a dream. AN AMBITION. But to enter boredom for so many years of my life. NONO for me. EXCITEMENT! I get bored easily. So that explains.

But there has been one thing I do everyday, these days.

Dream. I mean DAY dream.

I don't know why. But it is the sudden craving for a love that I will remember even after I die. (Though I always thought of dying as just PURE BLACK. Sleep without dreams. No nothing.) But aiyah forget that. I think I am getting desperate. Know how some adults at age of 40 and still single feeling that "pressure"? I think I am feeling it now. Damn! WHY WHY WHY!?!?! I have friends, school and many other stuff. But I think I want a hug. Haiz. Just a simple hug will do.

Why am I so emotional these days? Crap. Making me sound gay. But I don't care. I think I get in touch with my feminine side more than most guys do. So don't care.

PS Available females can send your resume and application form to Iamdesperatetoo@singles.com -.-"

Yesterday Jansen jio me play tennis with his friends. I stun. Hahaha I don't even rally well. So I was kinda worried I would not be able to meet up to the standard. Even so, I really did not regret going. It was so fun! So many balls. But my swings really sucked. Alot of lobs. All long...or short haiz. But it's okie~ I made 2 new friends. I hope my lousy memory will make me remember their faces when I see them in school.

After tennis went AMK mkt to eat. HAHAHAHA Jansen's friend went to order sugar cane for us. Then, I thought he went to order food and ask us to order drink. Then silly me went to order drink too! Ended up with two each. He's the experienced one. He ordered the one with quality. Yong tau fu was salty at first. But as you drink the soup, it becomes tastier. Nice recommendation by Jansen

Then shopped around AMK. Jansen said he's going to watch King Kong with his OG friend. Hahaha I asked to tag along because I wanted to watch too! Went home change. Confirmed timing and all. ORCHARD TIME!


Wow I tell you KING KONG WAS GREAT!!!! SIX STARS!!! Damn nice. Damn long. Made me feel "satisfied" when I came out of the theatre. How many movies you watch and makes you feel good? This is one of them! Really really nice. Watch for yourselves to know. If there is only one movie you are gonna watch a year, this is the one for this year. Nice flow of plot. Nice effects. Nice acting of the eyes and all. NICE! Period. Oh ya. One more new friend. Hahaha! Jason. Quite crappy and funny. Nice guy.

<--Check out the King Kong picture! Hahahaha!









Help ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jansen and I decided not to go home after the show which started 550pm ended around 910pm. Thought of playing pool. So we went to grab dinner. Walked to Cuppage to find dinner. Haiz. Great day ended not so nicely. Saw her. Didn't expect my heart to still have electric shocks and flutters. She ducked and pretended not to see me. Made me sort of sad. But i know i shocked her with my appearing. Hahaha first time there and such things happened. Maybe she was the only non-family so far that once made me feel loved. Ramen was nice. But can't finish.

Jansen not full. Went to Kopitiam Meridien( I don't care if i spelt wrong, but feel free to correct me haha) to eat more. Then went back to play pool. Lost 3 in a row!!!!! Not one game I won! Grumbles.... KNS. Haiz. Moody trip back home.

Hope tomorrow is more interesting and cheery. WHICH I DOUBT SO!

歌曲：不懂我的心

歌手：罗志祥 专辑：催眠show

许多乐器一窍不通
吉他也不全懂
美妙的旋律各不同
想你无尽的温柔
你说你喜欢我唱歌
眼睛天天都望着你
抱着真心用我的方式
说爱你我愿意
一句月亮代表我的心
几个和弦编织了爱情
其实很容易
伴着吉他唱出我的心意
一句其实你不懂我的心
我的爱早已超出你预期
其实真的爱你
一切时间证明慢慢靠近
爱的音符正在拨动
旋律穿透了天空
六弦勾勒出感动
爱情不会再溜走
一切时间证明慢慢你靠近
我是真的爱你

Youngest mei birthday today!!! Went to 天外天 Fish Steamboat Restaurant today to help her celebrate. Then, because relatives from Malaysia came over, they were there as well. But daddy got home at 630 la. Then they had to do this do that, kana sai. by the time we reach there. It was 730pm! HUNGRY!!! As usual, the bloody place crowded like hell.

Miao, my other sister, arrived earlier and ordered the food. KNS I thought waiting time will be reduced. KAOZ! I only had the first taste of food at 8pm! What the hell. Starved to max! And I think we shouldn't go there during weekends. Because their business is so good on weekends, quality was compromised. The prawn paste chicken (Har Chiong Ge-ai) was like plain deep fried chicken. The prawn meat roll was like chestnut roll. The main dish, fish head steamboat, was not magnificent like on weekdays. Haiz. Overall it sucked today. Disappointment. Did not meet up to my expectations, anticipation, etc etc. tion tion tion wadeva-tion. Sian.

Only thing normal was the veggies. But you realli can't go much wrong with the veg. But 天外天 has pretty babes there as usual. Somehow, you will always find good looking babes patronizing 天外天. Don't ask me why. At least they're above the average looking girls. Maybe it's because of their good business. Large crowd, higher probability. Hahaha.


For my beloved cousins if you read this :
(Zack looked like Park Yong Ha. This cute lil cousin of mine. Hahaha Korean looking cutie boy. Always cheerful, always giggling and laughing. Full of energy. Cordelia couldn't make it because she was working. Don't be sad Cordy, the food wasn't that great today. Jay and Jeremiah I think they will soon make it to become Singapore Greatest Jokers! WAHAHAHAHAHA. Didi... Don't watch "Nan Ren Bang" so much. BUAHAHAHAHA)

I was urgent. I went to kitchen toilet. I brought out my number and prepare to enter the stance... Then..... THE BLOODY PIECE OF HOLY SHIT CRAP NABE CH**BY THING HAPPENED!!!

I always say, " It's memories and experiences that make up each individual."

It's probably my experiences that make me think how I think now. Allow me to borrow from Tsubasa Chronicles. "Do not take up a perspective while seeking truth. Collect all information. Get the real truth." (Though it's really quite a lame show)

My family is that of a traditional Buddhism/Taoism family. Since young, I have been inculcated with all beliefs related to my family's main religion. (There are some Christians among us) So strongly was I taught with such thinking that it became a norm. How life should be led. How life would be after death.

I have learned that in this world. Definite/Perfection is non-existent. Like all strong empires and dynasties, they eventually crumble. I went to a christian secondary school. I was taught about Christianity in chapel lessons. How apalled I was to discovered things way beyond what I have known. With both so credible, which was I to believe? There can not exist two ruling norms in life, especially when they are of utmost importance. Or at least to me. Life and death became an brooding issue. I practically struggle with the issue of after-life for 2 years of my secondary life. I have my own conclusion now. Don't ask me what. Because this is not about religion. It is about viewing things in life.

That is one experience. The other major experience i had. Hmm.. I gotta thank someone. That someone had strong views. That someone had strong perceptions. That someone refused to accept and listen to other perspectives to issues and held strong to hers. Even if she heard of the other perspectives, she would mould it to suit her arguement.

Thanks to her, it reinforced my ability to view issues from a fairer stand. The next time something is presented to you. Try not to let your perceptions cloud your heads. Learn to analyse other views to the issue. While seeking the truth, Do Not Have Your Own Perceptions.

用自己冷漠的心 对爱你的人 掘了一道无法跨越的沟渠

How interesting the way one single line of one whole big chunk of words stick out like a bloody sore thumb. Your brain chooses what it wishes to see. So does your eyes and your ears. So the next time you wish to judge on some issues or someone, make sure you collect all information to give a fair trial. Hmm.. What ability to digress... Hahaha Ya. Me. Cold. Drain. That's it.

Stress. Results out soon. How come SMU ends its examination at a later date but has its results released earlier than us?! HOW COME?! Mr or Mrs or Miss or Mdm or wadeva la NTU!!! Why is it that you have to put us through eons of stress before releasing the results? At least let me enjoy my Christmas with joy. Haiz. Look at my head full of white hair? YOUR FAULT! Not pretty liao. BUAHAHHAHAHAHA Sounded like I have limp wrist syndrome! WAHAHHA fuck la... As though I give a damn about results. No fear~ (self denial)

Ciao! Bo liao entry.

幸福 is to love and be loved. 幸福 is to have fate and to have the ability and luck to continue with it.
Love and be loved in return. Simple words. Haiz. Hard to achieve. How many people in relationships now truely attained this and are experiencing 幸福. If you are, I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart. I tried either. But not both. So I never tasted true joy. Hurt many in the process of searching. Shan't search no more. I give up.

I live life with the absence of contentment.

In contentment, I do not find life.
In pursuit, I find enjoyment.

In contentment, I do not find improvements.
In pursuit, I find satisfaction.

Had a hair cut today! At Heeren's Toni & Guy. Hoohoho!! Recommended by Joy! Very friendly person. But I'm not the really talkative guy towards a new person. So... SORRY~ hahaha. But not bad service. It's no wonder they're so famous.
But hor... How come it doesn't look cut at all?!?! I never style it also la. Haha just bathe ma. Lazy. But seriously it doesn't look much different. Maybe a little shorter. But still I am okie with it. Any shorter it will show my curls. So.. ya thank you Gabriel. Wondering if I should straighten again so i can layer the top. Gabriel told me the trend nowadays is no longer spike. Hahaha. But he didn't notice the pictures he showed me are all ang mo's pictures. Hahaha. I want a jappo look! No an ang mo look. I came out of T&G with thise bob hair. WAHAHAHAHA. I would have laughed at myself. But I CAN'T. Went to the toilet to do my hair, realised the bob is due to the wax. Gotta analyse how to style it le. Maybe I can come back to him to cut my hair for my industrial attachment. It will be the very moment then where I would have to hold a funeral for my long hair which I have grown to like!

Went to the polyclinic to get my meds this morning. Alright Maybe not really morning. It's the first time I been to the branch near my house after it's revamp. Hahaha. Apparently, Much more changes to it. Zouk revamp. Polyclinic revamp. I wish I had a vamp of my own. HAHAHAHA! Woohoo! Bitchy Bitchy Vamp~ The reception only made me wait 5 minutes. Then the consultation room made me wait 30 minutes. But the STUPID pharmacy section made me wait for a good hour and 5 minutes! The waiting time seems to be growing exponentially as the process goes.

A view of the Stupid new polyclinic!! haha.

Fate. Fate. Fate. *grumbles* Why does fate always like to bully me?! Today finally decided to go back to buy the jacket. I know I know the last piece. Should have bought it yesterday. Haiz. Why didn't fate give me time to decide?! Ya. It's gone forever. Wondering when can I find a similar one?
Oh ya! Good luck k Sheane? I may bully you often. But this time I seriously wish you good luck. =)

Hohoho!!! HOLIDAYS! Anyone can tell me where in Singapore, dance lessons are provided? Wanna learn hip hop/modern jazz. Hahaha Looks fun. Wonder if they will accept beginners like me.... I'll try not to trip. hahaha

Finally, I found a decent jacket that almost fits what I want. But goddamnit, it's from polo ralph... Kaoz.... I am no rich kid lor. $153. And without hood. But it is really what I wanted. Plain simple black with a logo. Simplicity rules man. It's so hard to find a simple design nowadays with all the colorful, complicated messy style of designing. Please.... street wear/urban clothes designers.... add more variety. But please allow some simplicity too! This way I can jolly well have best of both worlds!!! Hmm... Should I go back and get the jacket?? It's really quite a treasure. Last piece somemore.

Found the track pants at Nike!! Any kind soul can tell me where else in Singapore sells track pants? I can't bear to spend 70 bucks for a plain track pants with only a tick. We need more "treasure chests" shops in Singapore la. If only got SUPER DUPER ULTIMATE CHAMPION cheap air tickets to Taiwan, Hong Kong, Korea, or Japan. I will fly there for shopping trips! I bet every other Singaporean will do so too! Singapore shops give no considerations to male shoppers la! One bloody shop sell one style, all other shops sell the same! I really can't bear to face it man. Every bloody shop in Singapore seem to be selling the Jumanji hunter clothes with "US Army" tag on it. -.- OH PLS. Or tees with more strokes of paint than strands of my hair! And I am definately not botak k.

Jealous and envious of girls. How come they can have so many shops of different styles? I remember the time where, for guys, cargo pants lasted for 5 years!!! Crazy. Please, Please, Please, import more clothes.

Maybe I really should get the jacket tomorrow. Really like it. Nice and plain. OH! Did I mention also? The fitting room was so darn spacious with a seat! Can hanky panky your karma sutra there man!

I hate hate hate holidays! Why? Cause I dont have enough friends to go out with. Don't have enough places to go to. I hate stoning at home... i wanna go out... but everyone seems preoccupied on the same day... and free on the same day.
AND I NEED MONEY!!! Okane ga arimasen! got lobang tell me please~ need money for clothes for the next semester. Need money for new hair. Need money for everything. Haiz.
Date me PLEASE! i am desperate to go out!! DATE ME!! hahaha. Not talking abt a two person guy girl r/s to be kinda of dates... I no realli interested in those kind at the moment.. I'm 22!!! too young to be serious! perhaps my heart begs to defer... WADEVA LA I AM BORED! so save me!
And who was the anonymous who said long time no see??? haiz frds... please leave ur name so wont long time no see ma...
OH YA! DAWN YANG IS CHIO IN REAL LIFE! managed to see the barbie doll. Think Jansen too charming haha. but not my type of chio girls... I prefer asian looking girls. haha. Talking as though I've got a right to choose. But who cares.