Tuesday, June 20, 2006
I witnessed death....
I rushed in time to TTS hospital in time to greet my grandpa the last time. Guilty as charged, I admit I am not exactly close to my grandpa. But still as a grandson, I had to do what I had to do and rushed down. Guilty as charged, I did not shed a single drop of tear till now.
In fact, I was pretty pissed on the night my grandpa passed away. He passed away on the night of 18th.
Reason of being pissed: My aunts and uncles were discussing some crap which I feel ashamed to disclose on my blog over such imbecile matters.
I am also pretty glad grandpa died peacefully after so much struggle.
I actually witnessed his death. Unconscious and just left like that. The face turned from a normal skin color, to dark, to pale white, to yellowish dead. Hmmm...
In fact, I was pretty pissed on the night my grandpa passed away. He passed away on the night of 18th.
Reason of being pissed: My aunts and uncles were discussing some crap which I feel ashamed to disclose on my blog over such imbecile matters.
I am also pretty glad grandpa died peacefully after so much struggle.
I actually witnessed his death. Unconscious and just left like that. The face turned from a normal skin color, to dark, to pale white, to yellowish dead. Hmmm...
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
I am nothing but a creator of hurt.
I'm probably an shit ass fallen angel thrown onto Earth to cause hurt.
I have done nothing for the past few days except to cause unbearable hurt to pple i hold dear.
I am very much confused. I don't know what step to take next.
Call me selfish piece of shit. I do know I owe an apology to alot of you people out there. Similarly I owe loads of appreciation to people who supported me....
Sorry and thank you.
I have done nothing for the past few days except to cause unbearable hurt to pple i hold dear.
I am very much confused. I don't know what step to take next.
Call me selfish piece of shit. I do know I owe an apology to alot of you people out there. Similarly I owe loads of appreciation to people who supported me....
Sorry and thank you.
Saturday, June 03, 2006
Blinded?
I am blinded?
Blinded by my happiness that I can ignore your sadness?
Blinded by judgements made from predictions that I think I can inflict my judgement on you?
No one wants me to be happy. NO ONE.
Blinded by my happiness that I can ignore your sadness?
Blinded by judgements made from predictions that I think I can inflict my judgement on you?
No one wants me to be happy. NO ONE.
Hardest battle to fight is when you're alone
I had a very nice relationship with someone I love. I had a very trusting family who supports me whatever I do. Rome wasn't build in a day, but can topple in seconds.
Life has proven itself to me yet again that everything in life moves in an economical way of ups and down. At its peak it will soon grow to a trough. But somehow in my life, this trough seems t be endless. I love living as such. I love everything that has to do with life including pain and hurt and happiness and love. I love all that I have and all that I treasure. BUT WHY IS LIFE BEING SO TOUGH ON ME?! It's not fair to judge things that way.
I always thought and believed in the fact that the universe tends to unfold upon itself. Everything will fall in place. The thought gives me the zen to carry on with my life that has long been over-burdened by sadness and pain.
I was in a cabin of a sinking ship. I found out that one of the helicopters was heading to my destination for landing. I boarded it. I was so happy and have never felt so blessed before. I had everything I asked for in life. Little did I expect that a zillion tonardoes was brewing up ahead. I had the training of a fighter pilot. I prepared myself to go through whatever storm that comes in my way, taking over the seat of the pilot. At the very least did I expect the helicopter to malfunction.....
"The hardest battle in life is when you realised that you are fighting it alone...."
"The greatest pain in life is when you realised people are giving up on your existence..."
"The greatest hurt you can get is when you realised you are causing hurt to your loved ones..."
I don't know how to ameliorate the situation.
"Protectionism is a practise in attempt to protect your country's industries, but ending up in the deprivation of your citizen's ability to consume."
Life has proven itself to me yet again that everything in life moves in an economical way of ups and down. At its peak it will soon grow to a trough. But somehow in my life, this trough seems t be endless. I love living as such. I love everything that has to do with life including pain and hurt and happiness and love. I love all that I have and all that I treasure. BUT WHY IS LIFE BEING SO TOUGH ON ME?! It's not fair to judge things that way.
I always thought and believed in the fact that the universe tends to unfold upon itself. Everything will fall in place. The thought gives me the zen to carry on with my life that has long been over-burdened by sadness and pain.
I was in a cabin of a sinking ship. I found out that one of the helicopters was heading to my destination for landing. I boarded it. I was so happy and have never felt so blessed before. I had everything I asked for in life. Little did I expect that a zillion tonardoes was brewing up ahead. I had the training of a fighter pilot. I prepared myself to go through whatever storm that comes in my way, taking over the seat of the pilot. At the very least did I expect the helicopter to malfunction.....
"The hardest battle in life is when you realised that you are fighting it alone...."
"The greatest pain in life is when you realised people are giving up on your existence..."
"The greatest hurt you can get is when you realised you are causing hurt to your loved ones..."
I don't know how to ameliorate the situation.
"Protectionism is a practise in attempt to protect your country's industries, but ending up in the deprivation of your citizen's ability to consume."
Thursday, June 01, 2006
So many memories
A relationship is bound by memories. I have been very happy these days. So so much happier. I feel loved, blessed and fortunate for various reasons.
1) I simply love all the first timer memories i am like creating with my baby, shan't name all coz REALLI alot of memories! Most recent being today, shopping the supermarket with her, pushing the trolley like we are married and shopping for groceries. =] so darn sweet and happy.
2) The affection my dear gives me.... it makes me feel so loved. SO SO loved!!! so much dat i feel as though i am flying in the sky. It feels good to be placed up on a pedestal dear. Thank you my precious baby.
3) My dar dar is very very very understanding, as in sometimes I feel like I am so shitty lor, she just takes so much hurt I caused knowingly and unknowingly, but she still tries her best not to get angry with me.
Alot of small things big things la.. I treasure this baby of mine alot and please wish me all the best k?
Baby, disappointment or hurt I can bear. I just feel sorry for inflicting them. I love you alot my baby. ALOT ALOT
1) I simply love all the first timer memories i am like creating with my baby, shan't name all coz REALLI alot of memories! Most recent being today, shopping the supermarket with her, pushing the trolley like we are married and shopping for groceries. =] so darn sweet and happy.
2) The affection my dear gives me.... it makes me feel so loved. SO SO loved!!! so much dat i feel as though i am flying in the sky. It feels good to be placed up on a pedestal dear. Thank you my precious baby.
3) My dar dar is very very very understanding, as in sometimes I feel like I am so shitty lor, she just takes so much hurt I caused knowingly and unknowingly, but she still tries her best not to get angry with me.
Alot of small things big things la.. I treasure this baby of mine alot and please wish me all the best k?
Baby, disappointment or hurt I can bear. I just feel sorry for inflicting them. I love you alot my baby. ALOT ALOT
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